Ten months ago, I was comtemplating... I know this is going to happen... I know it is going to hurt... but I accepted it.

This Ten months.. I have been very happy.

now it has come to an end... I have no regret at all...

I know it's good for both of us... it's not easy.. but I will try.

I think it's the time to go. I have been talking about this since ages. Recently, this thought just getting stronger and stronger. It could be becoz I am getting old... it could also becoz they are getting old. I think it's time for me to go back and take part!! I am part of it after all... I was not responsible for the last 25 years... I should go home now.

I might be leaving freedom... leaving comfort zone.. leaving good pay... leaving good friends.

What's the most important in my life??

I think I have found the answer.

It's time to let go... nothing is more important than family.

I miss home!

I haven't been here for half a year. I read back some entries and I saw I have promised to come here and write more often. I don't even remember I have said that. Many things had happened in these few months. I am feeling a little tired and sick of life.

After 6 months of being together... he has gone back. I miss him. I handled it a lot better than I thought. I thought I will go crazy without him but I didn't/don't. Life has been the same since he went back, just a little bit quieter. He is now very busy studying. Each time when we talk, he will tell me how busy he is. I know we are not communicating well. I don't know if this relationship is going anywhere but I still miss him. I am not sure how he feels but all I can do is to wait. Few months ago, he asked me if he should go back? I said to him.. don't waste your time anymore. I know he could be leaving me forever.... again and again I thought about this.. and I didn't regret to make such decision. I don't know what I am waiting for now and I am not sure if I will be able to wait for that one day. I am trying hard!

Many times I want to tell you how I feel but I don't want to disturb you. I do not want you to worry about me on top of your crazy study load.

My borther is here for one day due to work. I picked him up after work and regardless how tired he was, we went for a quick supper. He is only staying here for one day, it's short for me to bring him around but I guess Perth has nothing much anyway. He went to Sydney last year while I was in Sydney, we met up for a seafood breakfast, that was great. It is werid to see him in other countries but not in HK.

I saw my collage friend tonight at work. She is pregnant. I was not too close with her in collage time but we were from the same English class. I didn't even know she was married. It is strange to see my friend being pregnant, but I guess I am now at the age of hearing these news. Congrats to her...

When I first move into this house, I decided to get rid of my old kitchen and have a new one. I specially made a bench top so I can have meals on it and not to have dinning area in the house. However becoz my kitchen is ultra small and the bench top turn out to be a mini table, recently I keep thinking I might need a dinning table after all. I have turned my dining room in my study, but I think I need to change it now. I have a rough idea now.. but I need time and motivation to do it. hehehehe :P it's something really hard to find.

Life has been plain. I have been living in my new place for about three months.. I am liking it. I have my own room, my own space and my own kitchen.

Life in my new workplace is getting better now. I am starting to get used the non-sense. I have made a few new friends as well.. I came to realise how hard it is to make new friends after one grown up. It's rather comfortable to stick with the usual fews. I am slowly walking out of my comfort zone and meeting more people.

The more you care, the more I scared. I am worried... too much and I am thinking... too much. I want an answer first before I made the final decision but the question is not easy to ask. We have been the same for the past years... what can make us change? Some courages? A little push? Where do I find them?

I will make myself start writing this again.. I think it's important for me to remember what has been happening in my life.